Peace be with you ^^

2 words 2 resolutions

2012-01-06T19:46:00.000-08:00

Discipline. Control.

Relations are so ephemeral these days

2011-12-26T07:00:00.000-08:00

I try not to believe in love...but the feeling is just so real.

Sigh.

11:11:11

2011-11-11T11:12:00.002-08:00

To my twin flame: Hope you will finally pick up the courage to reunite with me.

2011-11-11T11:12:00.001-08:00

test

Playmate to Jesus

2011-09-30T07:43:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m0ayTZi7Xjw&feature=channel_video_title

Im so full of emotion after listening to this song.

=/

2011-01-22T12:02:00.000-08:00

I awoke to a cold heart

Infected by the Apathy bug.

hmm....

2011-01-16T09:16:00.001-08:00

I need more financial and Spiritual Discipline

sigh

2011-01-11T07:47:00.000-08:00

I dislike testing the characters of my friends. But I inadvertantly do. And when they fail it, I hope it was inadvertantly too.

Haix...

2011-01-03T19:29:00.000-08:00

AKON- Keep You Much Longer

Wish I can keep you much longer
I know you gotta go, cause you got thangs to do
Wish I can keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me, girl like I was to you
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side

The tables have turned, and I've finally learned
That this is makin-up for every day I was gone
Thats why I'm concerned, but now It's confirmed
That you spread your wings, and learned to fly with all the load

Darkness in the night, I'll find that light for you
As long as I got eyes, I'll have a sight for you
As long as I'm alive, baby I'll die for you
Whatever with you

Chorus -
Wish I can keep you much longer
I know you gotta go, cause you got thangs to do
Wish I can keep you much longer
Now you to busy or me, girl like I was to you
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side

Your always on my mind,
While I'm racing, while I'm paper chasin,
You were there when I said one day I get up out that basement
Playin as my agent, boy you there is no replacement
you will always be my girl, that can hope me own that statement

Darkness in the night, I'll find that light for you
As long as I got eyes, I'll have a sight for you
As long as I'm alive, baby I'll die for you
Whatever with you

Wish I can keep you much longer
I know you gotta go, cause you got thangs to do
Wish I can keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me, girl like I was to you
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side

Baby I know you, and how we do
Doing exactly what I taught you
Gotta get that money first before you
Come spend that precious time with your boo
And I know what I got, just take it
Even You was driving me crazy
Always want to see my girl naked, but lately

Wish I can keep you much longer
I know you gotta go, cause you got thangs to do
Wish I can keep you much longer
Now you to busy for me, girl like how I was to you
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side
Wish I could just stop by, and maybe say hi
Wish I could just stop by, and lay by your side

2010 Stock Take

2010-12-29T07:00:00.000-08:00

Its the end of the year again. I look through my previous post on my annual resolution and realised I only had one ticks out of three.

It has been a strange and wierd year for me. Relationships are a funny thing, they take you to new places which you never imagined was possible. Sometimes ,at the end of it, you wish you never started it. But when its over, you realised you are a mature person because of it.

I will ORD in 28days time...havent thought about my resolutions yet. =)

Anglican Christians

2010-09-09T07:33:00.001-07:00

I think its a sign from god if the person I keep getting interested in is always an anglican christian

Unfulfilled Destiny

2010-09-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

Im sorry...sigh,,,take care.

Changing Destiny

2010-08-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

As I stared into the heavens, I felt the star aligning again once more. =)

ALL IS WELL =D

2010-06-26T19:14:00.000-07:00

Yup. And Nothing is Broken at all =D

Homophobes are Closet Gays in Denial

2010-06-20T09:54:00.000-07:00

Im no stranger to irony, but today's event redefines irony to a brand new meaning in my life.

So I saw him in Kbox. And I stood there pondering about the past. How he tried to do me harm. How he Thought of ways to charge me and made my life difficult at work.

And at one point, I wanted to yell it out to everyone who he really was and spill the beans.

But I remembered. He was exactly like my ex in so many ways. His inferiority complex. His Insecure look. His sensitive nature. And that Deja Vu feeling hit me again. I was reminded why I had a crush on him.

Your secret is save with me. At least, till you and me leave the organisation. Afterall, You still owe me a debt. :)

2010-05-05T08:08:00.000-07:00

And I say to you, the reason why you will never have a peaceful happy relationship is because the basis of your relationship was not founded on integrity but on deceit and manipulation. Whatever Joys you have will be short lived. Whatever stability you enjoy will be transitory. You reap what you sow. And I do hope you are enjoying every moment of your harvest. =)

HAPPY CNY!

2010-02-16T04:38:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CNY!!

Haha, finally I found the time to blog for my first post of the year!

I know this is not typical of me, but Ive decided to create a few resolutions for myself this year. I figured some form of focus would do me some good! In preparing for this year's set of resolutions I took into account the following:

1) The feasibility of the proposed resolution
2) My Needs and Wants
3) The amount of time I have.
4) My current networth
5) The lack of a driving license

My Resolutions for 2010

1) I will get my broking license

2) I will acheive a networth of a million dollars

3) I may do something about my lack of driving license

Ok...thats it. I think the above 3 are feasible. lol.

Had a great time visiting relatives during this CNY period. However I notice a dropped in the ang pow yield again this year. =/

I have this theory that the amount of ang pao money you receive every year during CNY can be used as a gauge of the general local economy. Since my ang pao money declined by 20% this year, last year probably wasnt a good year despite the stock market recovering. Sigh, only means the rich are getting richer and the poor still stuck at where they are.

And for the first time I went to club on the first day of CNY! Lol, I think it was an auspicious thing. lol. Bumped into so many friends there! Haha, I was curious as to why there were so many ajs there...(My friend later told me that ajs dont like to do visiting because annoying relatives keep asking them when they are getting married)

Zirca was a blast! The music was probably the best Ive heard with the medley of Leona Lewis, Britney and Lady Gaga...But I thought the highlight of the night was 2 guys blowing each other at the 2nd floor toilet. They easily stole the limelight.

Bumped into some friends frm the 88 thread, Prawn, Marcus, lulu and YN...haha, so happy to meet them again after so long. I bought YN a drink...guess I do owe him an one for allowing myself to be mislead by that guy's biasness and agenda.
Hopefully, YN would be better off after all that has happened =D.

Looking back at the past year, I felt it was a painful experience for me...but necessary for me to progress further. Im glad that im no longer in an unhealthy relationship and Im much more empowered to do what I need to do. =D

Sigh, back to camp again tml....

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P.S Angels never stop loving =)

FRIDAY NIGHT MAGIC FOR THE MONTH OF OCT

2009-10-07T04:24:00.000-07:00

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DATE: 9 OCT and 16 OCT

Time: 7.30pm (pls be punctual!)

Format: Booster Draft / Single Elimination

Entry Fees: $17 (Includes 3 x Zendikar Booster Packs)

Prizes!:

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3rd & 4th: 1 Zendikar Pack + DCI foil

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Somtimes, we may also host drafting events on other weekday nights or wkend afternoons to cater to player who may not be able to play on friday night. Do check back on this thread to find out the next schedule!

An angelic song

2009-09-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

"You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

Dedicated to those who I love and still love. There is no loved to me. For Angels never stop loving =)

The stroy of Diminishing Returns

2009-09-19T01:58:00.000-07:00

Ive long wondered about the odds of winning the scratch cards at a Singapore Pools outlet. So yesterday afternoon, I paid a visit to SP outlet to satisfy my curiosity. I saw that there were 4 types of tickets, $1, $2, $5 and $10 tickets.

I bought 2 $10 tickets and scratch it, struck $100 for one of them and 0 for the other.

So i queued back in line to encash them. The counter took great pains in scrutinising the ticket before asking me "Would you like Cash or 10 pieces $10 tickets?" Feeling intrigued, I asked for 10 $10 tickets instead. Anyway, this $20 is just for entertainment.

So I furiously scratched them all wondering if I could strike $1000 or the top prize of $128000.

I hit $15 for one of them and 0 on the rest.

SO I thought about it...and wondered if I should take the money or change them into $5 tickets. I decided on the latter. So I got back 3 $5 tickets and started scratching them. 1 of them hit a $8 prize while the other 2 hit a blank.

I took the winning ticket and swap them for 8 $1 tickets...just as I thought, all of them hit a blank. As I stood at the betting outlet staring at the blank tickets, I thought back about my initial $100 winnings and how ,through a series of process, became $0.

Hmmm....

Sucks to be sick for 10 days

2009-09-04T08:35:00.000-07:00

And so today marks the last day of my 10days MC. The Raging 40degrees of feverish hell, the random muscle spasms, and the endless trips to the loo. So happy to be alive again. =)

But I secretly wished that you were here to sponge me when I was in bed then

Somehow somewhere I know you are out there

2009-08-30T17:21:00.000-07:00

Sigh sick again...on the brightside, 7 days of MC!

If you were still here, I know you would be hugging me=)

Thanks for playing me out

2009-08-25T07:20:00.000-07:00

Im sitting here crying, yet you treat it like its a small matter...

To that somebody who played my out:

Thanks for treating like you never loved me. Thanks for all that empty promises. Thanks for forcing me to play second fiddle. Thanks for all that sweet hypocritical words. And Thank you for toying with my heart and treating me as a second choice should you not get your first choice. =D

I wanted to type this out on the day I realised what you were doing. But I was blinded by love, I ignored my intuition and committed grave sins against somebody who I once held dear....to that person, Im sorry for what Ive done. I did not intent it.

Hmm, but if you had not done all that to me, I wouldnt have realised the following

"Dont Let Somebody become a Priority in your life, when you are only an Option to his/hers"

=)

Lust is such a waste of time

2009-08-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

"The AJ Circle can be summarised into the following- Go clubbing on saturday/sunday, fuck around after that, enjoy tasty blowjobs, get laid and feel empty after that"

o.o

Really? lol. My curiosity is proving to get the better of me...

So sad So emo So Happy

2009-07-14T07:49:00.000-07:00

好马不吃回头草，好女不嫁二丈夫

Hmm, typing out my feelings are starting to be a chore to me these days....I think I'll let music and random phrases do the talking...they are usually more metaphorical anyway...

Reflections....

2009-07-05T04:28:00.000-07:00

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
How it could be now or neither been (or neither been)
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

I never had a dream come true
Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where love takes me to
A part of me will always be with you

Somewhere in my memory I lost all sense of time
Amd tomorrow can never be
'Cause yesterday is all that fills my mind
There's no use looking back or wondering
How it should be now or neither been (or neither been)
Oh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

You'll always be the dream that fills my head
(Yes you will, say you will, you know you will, baby)
You'll always be the one I know (I'll never forget)
There's no use looking back or wondering (or wondering)
Because love is a strange and funny thing
No matter how I try and try
I just can't say goodbye
No no no no

A part of me will always be with you...

My duality is enveloping me....

2006-10-02T07:46:00.000-07:00

I feel so fucking useless. I failed to convince my parents to get me that handphone I want 4 months ago. 4 months later , its not what I want anymore. The person I love rejected me. I lost a good friend. I dont feel like living anymore. I wish my body would just crumble to dust. I want my soul to wander around freely without encumberances. I dont feel like giving a shit about anything around me....

Why am I typing this? hahahahahahaha......A good death would be dying in front of the dancing machine.....at least that is what I enjoyed doing.....hahahaha

A post mortem

2006-09-06T10:49:00.000-07:00

I just spoke with a good friend on the phone. I called him to seek his honest opinions about me. He is right. Im insecure and that explains why Im unwilling to make a decision. But as we talked, we delved deeper into my core and I found some explanations to my paradoxes.

It seems that in my pursuit to be altruistic, I became a giving person. I didnt believe in ranking my friends. I say, all should be equal and I try to be fair to everybody. However, that was being idealistic.

How could you treat somebody like a diamond when he treats you like shit?

And at that instant another bubble popped and I crash back onto hard logic. Of course this doesnt mean altruism doesnt exist. The bible speaks of the parable of the prodigal son. The values of altruism can be found in there.

And now, I just need to ask somebody one last question before riding the winds of change.

The end of a friendship??? :(

2006-09-06T03:30:00.000-07:00

Im not sure where to start and Im sad, angry and confused. I lost a friend because he couldnt forget the past and accuses me of conning him. And worst he overstep a boundary and suggested that Im a conmen for the past 5 years.

I think I had enough. I made it clear to him that if he insisted behaving in this manner, we will no longer be friends. And he said ok.

And while I walked back, I thought of teh things I did for him and how he never appreciated them. Gerald and ahmad was right all along. He wasnt as what I thought him to be.

To my other friends, a peice of advice for you:

Beware the snake the bites the hand that feeds it.

Exams...........

2006-08-01T08:57:00.000-07:00

Yup...its the time of the year again. Exams. Fuck the academic calendar. Fuck it for not being able to give students the leeway and time to have a holistic education. My test all looks....ok. Im feeling positive at this point of time...lol.

Went to Whitesands with Jeremy today after school. Was contemplating treating him ice cream at Ben and Jerry's when he asked for Swenson's Ice cream instead. So I walked pass by the outlet and saw that they had this promotion where you could get the next sundae for free, including earthquake, if you ordered the first. But Jeremy wanted a topless 5 and I wasnt sure if that was applicaple to the promotion. So I thought that maybe B & J would be a better option and suggested going to DTE. But Jeremy wanted to eat at cavana. So I tagged along.

While he was eating, I sneaked off to Swensons and asked the cashier if the topless 5 was applicable to the 1 for 1 promotion. She said "Yes". Ok. So I went back and told jeremy that he can have the topless 5 if he wants. And he went "really?" "so good". And I was smiling all the way and I told him what the cashier said. LOL.

So we each enjoyed the topless 5...though I regretted not picking the frosted chocolate malt.

Fuck...exams in 7 days time and still a buttload of tutrial to copy. okie...blog again next time. Cya.

Blogging for the sake of blogging...

2006-07-25T10:17:00.000-07:00

Like the title suggest...this post is purely for the fact that Im blogging because I want to post something. So if you find this post meaningless, dont blame me for wasting yout time.

Managed to complete some outdated tutorials today...mainly measurements and accounts stuff.

Oh yah...I discovered the power of intent can do miracles! Through the power of intent, I managed to create abundance in my life! I was checking the stock market today and found that I had an unrealized profit of 1000 SGD....heh..

Thats not all, its been a few days since I last gave intent to clear some of my karma, and almost instantly I felt the old feelings and energies disengaged themself from my life. I guess this is all appropriate for me. Im now ready to move on into my next contract. :D

oh....I just realised that exams are just 2 weeks from now....better catch some sleep....the stock market is just about to get abit more exciting...lol

Something to ponder about...

2006-07-23T19:11:00.000-07:00

A few months back, I had an interesting conversation with one of my friends. He told me that he no longer could depend on anybody because people are usually selfish and there is no such thing as true charity in this world...not even friends.

I asked him what happened and he cited to me a few examples of how he wanted some help from his friends which they never gave. Even I, was guilty of it as he related to me an incident that caused him to feel dissapointed about me. This left me puzzled.

He told me that some where around last year, he had a friend (lets call him X) was in depression. X would call my friend at weird times in the night to talk about his problems. My friend would occasionally call X to check on him and see that he was alright. But, there was one night, where my friend received a suicidal message from X. X wanted to kill himself and my friend wanted to call X to check on him, but in vain because X was rejecting his calls.

So my friend phone his other friends at 1AM in the morning to request for their help in calling X. He just wanted to ensure that X was ok. So I happened to be one of the lucky ones he requested for help. He asked me to phone X and ask him a few questions to see if he was alright. Unfortunately, I was about to go to sleep and what he told me on the phone sounded like some kind of joke because firstly,

I have never heard of my friend tellng me about X before despite the fact that we chatted almost every other night. Secondly,

my friend has a proven track record in playing pranks at weird times of the day. He has called me in the middle of the night for no reason at all other than to say "hello" or "hi" before.

So naturally, I thought it was some kind of joke ,not some kind of emergency situation, and I hung up on him. This caused him to develop the thinking that "people are selfish and thus, you cant really depend on anyone".

I had a nice debate over his thinking that night because I couldnt understand what he meant by "You can only depend yourself and not others".

I think I finally understood what he meant by that. Something happened to me a few weeks back that caused me to feel the same way too. (isnt it weird that "something" must always happened before you can learn something from it"? lol...)

I happened to be involved in a dispute with my ex-cca chairman. I was trying to get back the membership fees which I paid without full knowledge of what I was paying for. And the chairman was originally ok until he became very aggressive in the conversation and started being ungentlemanly in his manner of speech. I dont like it when people are agressive towards me, although I can remain calm, it somehow affects my feelings. So I turned towards one of my friends in the same cca for some support.

But instead of saying some words of support he made statements that left me feeling sad and hurt. And he ended it off with "do what you want and dont tell me about it. I dont wanna know about it".

I couldnt sleep that night and the next morning I started crying even though I was telling myself that he was probably in a difficult position to support me too. And I had a competition on that same morning too. But the damage had been done. At the time when I needed some help, I was forsaken and left to fend for myself. Its not a nice feeling.

Would things have been different if I had shown abit more tolerance and patience towards my friend that night? Would I have been a happier person if my friend had supported me and not pre judge me that night?(sure, he might have his reasons for switching off, but it was at a time where he was the best person who could assist me)

Im not saying that anybody was in the wrong. Perhaps, the lesson here is that we should not be quick to prejudge others based on past experiences but instead give others the benefit of the doubt and help them when they ask for it. And when that happens friendships between friends would be much better. :D

The Second post

2006-07-19T05:43:00.000-07:00

Ok...I still havent figured out where to paste the html codes for the tagboard...lol. Maybe I will get someone to help me....any kind souls out there?

My first post!

2006-07-17T21:19:00.000-07:00

Ok. I finally got some motivation to create my new blog. Will be fiddling around and exploring blogspot for now. Post again later.