My duality is enveloping me....

I feel so fucking useless. I failed to convince my parents to get me that handphone I want 4 months ago. 4 months later , its not what I want anymore. The person I love rejected me. I lost a good friend. I dont feel like living anymore. I wish my body would just crumble to dust. I want my soul to wander around freely without encumberances. I dont feel like giving a shit about anything around me....

Why am I typing this? hahahahahahaha......A good death would be dying in front of the dancing machine.....at least that is what I enjoyed doing.....hahahaha